=(

Managed to fill up all the blanks for CCM Module Test.

Hopefully I will be able to attain the grade I am hoping for.

Gotta thank faci for his pointers given during workshop.

I could see what kind of results faci would expect from me.

This would definitely put pressures on me.

Hopefully I will not disappoint him for this semester.


....

On a side note, we haven spoke for a week.

I am telling myself, since both of us are unable to understand one another's stand..

This relationship, might head for no where.

Personal thoughts: Since he's unable to endure my current flactuating condition, (even though I tried to be ease at all times), what's worse if we really gets married. Pregnancy and so.

I'd bet my condition could be worse (or maybe better - which I doubt so) than now.

His incapability and my low threshold for his actions.

After so long, it's only up to heaven's will to bet whether we will be able to pull through this.

But I am giving myself a period.

If, by a certain period he still does not contacts me.

It will be the end of all.

I dont need a man like this.


恋爱刚开始的时候，两人会抓着彼此的手。
但放开一只手的话，好像就结束了。


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To find someone, whom could truly understand one another takes a strong will, patience and love.

Especially with such childhood upbringing like mine.

Never will I allow my future kids to go through the same torments as I did before.

“四是被父母抛弃。也许父母离婚、死亡，把你送人领养；也许是情感上的疏离，虽有父母，却对你不闻不问。觉得被父母抛弃的人，往往很难给予承诺，这是他们保护自己的方法，因为他们不希望再度被心爱的人抛弃，没有安全感，占有欲很强，不能信任人。被父母抛弃的孩子长大会面临一个很严重的问题，就是病态依赖。你有没有认识道歉个不停的人？这种人很难跟你沟通，很难信任你，也很容易染上瘾头，用这种方式来面对压力。”


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